Being Aware

And the walls came tumbling down…

industrial age institutions will continue to expand blindly, unaware of their part in a larger whole or of the consequences of their growth. Presence, Peter Senge
Our church Vestry retreat was this weekend, and I spent time at Roslyn, a quiet Episcopalian retreat center. A speaker yesterday has me thinking more about institutional change, one of my favorite topics. Though he spoke of change in the Episcopalian church, he could have been talking about institutional change in education.
As we talked about ways to build community in our church and offer experiences to meet the needs of our congregation, I also made connections to how we need to change our schools.

Peter Senge, who speaks and writes about systems change (The Fifth Discipline: School That Learn 2000), explores further the role of learning in one of his books, Presence. An Exploration of Profound Change in People, Organizations, and Society (also by O. Scharmer, J. Jarworski, and B. Flowers .) In the introduction he writes:

When any of us acts in a state of fear or anxiety, our actions are likely to revert to what is most habitual: our most instinctual behaviors dominate, ultimately reducing us to the “fight-or-flight” programming of the reptilian brain stem. Collective actions are no different. Even as conditions in the world change dramatically, most businesses, governments, schools, and other large organizations continue to take the same kinds of institutional actions that they always have. This does not mean that no learning occurs. But it is a limited type
of learning: learning how best to react to circumstances we see ourselves as having had no hand in creating.

So often our institutions want to do more of the same. We find ourselves trying to react to, find solutions to, problems that are beyond the scope of what we’ve always done. Instead, we need to find ways to do things differently. In church, it might be trying to meet the needs of parishioners who can’t make Sunday morning worship. Our speaker talked of focusing on Weekly Average Touches rather than Daily Sunday attendance. He talked of early morning discussion groups, evening speakers, online workshops, and even a Saturday morning Farmers Market held at the church.

In schools, this means meeting individuals’ needs where they are, focusing on deeper thinking, and integrating disciplines across the curriculum to  create moments of authentic learning. It means thinking holistically instead of in parts. For both church and school, we must let go of our “past-driven mentality.”

Senge says:

All learning integrates thinking and doing. All learning is about how we interact in the world and the types of capacities that develop from our interactions. As long as our thinking is governed by industrial, “machine age” metaphors such as control, predictability, and “faster is better,” we will continue to re-create institutions as we have, despite their increasing disharmony with the larger world.

Senge says he and the other authors began to see “presence” as “deep listening, of being open beyond one’s preconceptions and historical ways of making sense.We came to see the importance of letting go of old identities and the need to control…”

And so it is with the church, too. Are we open to these shifts? Are we prepared to let go of preconceived ideas?

The end of the introduction closes in this way:

In the end, we concluded that understanding presence and the possibilities of larger fields for change can come only from many perspectives—from the emerging science of living systems, from the creative arts, from profound organizational change experiences—and from directly understanding the generative capacities of nature.
Virtually all indigenous or native cultures have regarded nature or universe or Mother Earth as the ultimate teacher. At few times in history has there been a greater need to rediscover this teacher.

I’ve simplified his book, but the connections I made between our struggle to shift both education and church, the importance of community in both, and our need to think using the Theory of the U (more on that later) have me thinking.

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Just Leave Me Alone

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I awoke today in a bad mood.

Tossing and turning all night, I couldn’t get comfortable. The cat might have had something to do with it.

My feet were cold, too, so when I hit the icy floor, the chill spread throughout my body. I did not want to go to the gym, even though it’s our morning routine. My poor husband could tell something was wrong as I stormed around the house, gathering my workout clothes, downing some coffee, and looking for my gloves.

“What’s wrong?” he asked.

“NOTHING!” I barked, knowing full well I was in a simply, horrible, very, very bad mood.

Upon returning home, I ate my bowl of oatmeal and read the headlines in The Free Lance Star, feeling my bad humor dissipate. I hate that feeling (and I’m sure my optimistic, happy husband does, too).

When I can’t stand myself any longer, I have found these simple things to be helpful:

  • Go workout anyway. Physical movement can sometimes move the angst out
  • Remember that it’s all in my head, and I have control over how I feel
  • Focus on the good. Gratitude can work wonders

How do you get yourself out of a bad mood? What are your tricks?

Don’t You Love Book Recommendations?

One of the best parts of this collective learning is hearing from others about “good reads.” Frankly, there are just too many books about learning and schools these days, and I don’t have time time to check each one out.

So I rely on folks I trust to point me in the right directions. Sheryl Nussbaum Beach, for example, led me to Charlene Li’s book, Open Leadership. Today, Will Richardson shared John Seely Brown’s new book, A New Culture of Learning.

I, too, have been following John Seely Brown for some time, and this book is one I don’t want to miss.

What are you afraid of?

I’m not a rule-breaker. I wish I were.

But at 58, I don’t think I’ll be changing.

So I’ve had to learn to live with my fear, occasionally challenging myself to break the mold, let go, and take a leap of faith.

Heights, disappointing people, boats on choppy water. These give me constant struggle.

But believing that schools often damage children? Knowing that the way we “do school” is wrong? I’m not afraid to make those changes. These are questions I’m grappling with these days:

  • The importance of writing and how the teaching of writing needs to change
  • Whether college as we know it matters
  • How to maintain a curious mind
  • Whether the institution is the problem or the size of the institution

I suppose my own school experience contributes to my need to improve what we do. Because of my dad’s military career, I attended 13 schools in 12 years. I have only one positive memory of a teacher who mattered to me in all those years, and she changed my future.

I have no easy answers, but I continue to study and research the possibilities for change. Being afraid to rock the boat will mean calm waters but no movement. And I don’t want to stand still.

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Invite: to increase the likelihood of

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Some of us used FB  recently to share our One Little Word of the year.

Mine is Invite.

Our words give us the chance to focus on intentions. For me, it means saying yes. Yes to opportunities. Yes to health. Yes to living a life that is meaningful.

Playwright George C. Wolfe once said “you have to be available to the invisible voices swirling around you.” To me, that means being open to possibilities, being aware of my feelings and reactions to things, and living each day with hope.

What’s your One Little Word?