Pushing My Body

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getting ready….
water ski “fail”

One of my favorite activities growing up in Rhode Island was water skiing. I’d wake up early and head to the pond to catch the smooth water.

The other night my cousin (8 years younger than I) asked if anyone wanted to go skiing. I had a moment of craziness, and thought, “why not?” It had been 6 years since I’d skied, but how hard could it be, I thought. Like riding a bike :)

After agreeing, there was no turning back. His son, my son, and my grandson were in the boat, and I jumped in the pond. Just getting the skies on in the water is an ordeal (they keep sliding up and under you…it takes some effort to get them up in the “ready” position.)

Finally, I yelled “hit it!” I barely got my butt out of the water when I felt the handle pull out of my hands. As I hit the water, I felt a pain in the back of my head, and in short order, I felt nauseous. Nevertheless, I was in, and I attempted once more. No way. This old body just wasn’t going to make it. I’ve spent two days with a headache and sore muscles. It could have been worse.

I really don’t know what I was thinking. I haven’t been exercising as much as I should. And I’m not 17 anymore! Getting old, making the transition to old age, means giving up certain things. I have been spending much time this summer thinking about how I want to live out the end of my life. It may be 25 years or perhaps less. But I’m not kidding myself now– it will be different.

Even so, I can take care of myself so I stay healthy and active. I’ll watch my grandchildren learn to swim and ski on this same pond. And I’ll love every minute of having generations come back to Carters’ Landing, the place my grandparents built for all of us.

I can’t imagine anything more joyful.

Routine, Routine, Routine

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Spending a quiet evening on the beach has got to be my favorite thing to do this summer. We motor across the pond and walk the path to ocean …. the sun is starting to set and crowds have left. Glorious.

So far, I’ve felt good this summer– even though it’s been so hard maintaining a routine. As visitors come in and out, I seem to toss out the planning and go with the flow. And yet, except for missing my regular exercising, I’m doing ok.

I do my breathing at least twice a day, and journal if I start to feel my gut/nerves do the typical rolling around. Then I know I better get what’s in my head on paper!

We are still trying to limit our sugar and eat plenty of vegetables. It’s hard when the Quonnie Farm Stand with its delicious scones is right down the road. I LOVE bread but it’s not good for my gut….

Home Again

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  • Catching the rainbow
  • A walk around the pond
  • Too cold
  • An evening on the boat

We’ve had a busy first week back in Rhode Island, but that’s because I am doing all my favorite things. We also made it to Mystic Seaport and three restaurants with the first set of kids. The family will come in shifts, and I need to make sure I don’t eat as much as I did this week.

Still, I am not complaining. This place makes me feel settled, calm. It is familiar.

I Hate to Travel

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But I love to see new places and learn.

Now that we’re back from our trip out West (South Dakota, Montana, Iowa, and Wyoming), I’ll need days to recover. Lack of sleep, eating all the wrong things, nervous stomach from driving over tall mountains, and, of course flying all contributed to this current state of affairs.

Our last flight was canceled, so we spent 9 hours in the airport before settling into a midnight flight to DC (with turbulence all the way). Now my gut is raging, my feet are swollen, and I’m exhausted.

Was it worth it? Yes. The views, the animals, various museums, and the fun people who shared our week-long adventure made this memorable. The temperatures were 90 at home, and we had a foot of snow!

The long days (we began with breakfast at 7 and ended getting off the bus around 5-6 most days) and cafeteria food (lots of carbs, meat, and sugar), and a different hotel each evening (packing and unpacking) made me wish the trip had been shorter. At one point, I told David I wish we hadn’t come and I’d never do this kind of trip again.

But then we’d visit a new place, learn the history, and see sights that are difficult to find words for, and I was ready for more. Now that it’s over, the negatives are fading from memory….

Instead, I am thinking of the Lakotas and our broken treaties; the Ziolkowski family who devoted their lives to carving Crazy Horse; a live bison napping outside our lodge window; a snowstorm at Yellowstone; the murder of thousands of bisons by Buffalo Bill Cody; waterfalls showering rocks and streams; Badlands and the geologic formations; many myths surrounding Yellowstone park; and challenges of Native American life today.

This makes so much sense:

“Travel isn’t always pretty. It isn’t always comfortable. Sometimes it hurts, it even breaks your heart. But that’s okay. The journey changes you; it should change you. It leaves marks on your memory, on your consciousness, on your heart, and on your body. You take something with you. Hopefully, you leave something good behind.” – Anthony Bourdain

Ten Years

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When I was about to turn 60, I decided I should start a blog for 60-somethings, a journal of sorts to remember and share what I was going through. I couldn’t believe I was that old! Well, I think I managed one post before I abandoned it.

And now I am about to turn 70, which sounds about as old as 60 did ten years ago. The only thing that’s changed is how I look at the world, myself, and my relationships.

I will continue sharing what I’m learning here. I can’t wait until I am almost 80 to see if my topics have changed. Somehow I envision lots of posts about getting older, and that’s ok because that’s where I am. That 18 year old, sitting by the side of the road in Amsterdam with a loaf of bread and a hunk of cheese, thinking she was all that and more, had no idea how her life would turn out. There have been many dark times, moments filled with regret, days when I wondered if I was losing my mind. And yet here I am, excited about this next decade and feeling grateful for all I have in my life.

Minute by minute. Hour by hour. Day by day.

I wanted a perfect ending. Now I’ve learned, the hard way, that some poems don’t rhyme, and some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle and end.–Gilda Radner

Stay tuned.